August 26, 2013 § 2 Comments

It’s been almost 3 years since I left India but even today when I read the atrocities committed against women back home creates a sense of insecurity and fear even though I live thousands of miles away. I believe that every girl born in India will definitely have a story – a story of a man stalking, starring, masturbating, groping, rape and death. A few days back I got a text from a friend asking if I had read about the 23 yr old photographer who was raped in Mumbai and my reaction to it. My thoughts immediately shifted to the day when I read Nirbhaya’s news. That day I was engulfed in anger and frustration, I was happy to see the protests and the attention the story was getting among the press- every paper I read online, twitter , Facebook was buzzing with this story and the need to change laws. That day I truly believed that a change is going to take place that the anger is definitely going to yield results. But here we are months later facing similar questions and experiencing the same emotions but today I’m not angry I feel helpless like the millions in my country.

I was raised in a family that believes in the system; from a very young age I believed that the government in my country is there to protect its people. I was named ‘Priyadarshini’ by my dad because he believed that women like ‘Indira Gandhi’ change the world. He is a believer in empowering women. Today I sit in my couch flipping through pages of reports and articles of how India is one of the most dangerous countries to live and a sense of fear is taking over me.

From a young age I was the daring one in the family. My two sisters are known to be calm and cautious women. I was someone who grabbed life by the scruff of its neck; I was studying in 8th grade when I experienced my first dose of what lay ahead in life. I was travelling from school back home on a government bus which was extremely crowded. In a crowded bus people are usually standing very close to each other and that day a man was standing so close to be that at one point I realized what he was attempting to do. I’m someone who usually doesn’t take **** from anyone for whatever reason. I also knew that if I’m going to ask someone to help me chances are I might be questioned if I provoked the man to behave that way. Without hesitation I reached out to my bag and took out a safety pin (irony in the name) and without hesitation I inserted into the man’s thigh. Today if I think about it I don’t know if what I did was right or wrong but that day it definitely saved me. Since then I look at anyone standing close to me in public with a sense of fear. It might be an insignificant incident but it has definitely had an effect on me. I still remember being glued to my television when the Jessica Lal case was unfolding and today the same way I’m watching this young girl’s horrific experience.

On Friday I was watching the news and I heard an MP say that we need to let people take the law in their hands and another MP comparing India with Saudi Arabia. Even though I’m extremely disappointed with the laws in my country I would never compare it to Saudi Arabia nor would I urge public to take law into their own hands. Is this what our nation has become into? The Home Minister of the State says that women journalists need extra protection. We don’t need your paternalism; we need the freedom we deserve. We have today become a society that says ‘Oh thank God the guy just brushed against you, it could have been worse’. How have we come to this state where a guy touching or stalking is OK! What does the future hold? Are we then at some point going to say‘ Oh it’s good that it just ended with rape, you could be killed’. I fear for how as a society we have become desensitized and de – value the crime committed.

Another prominent New Channel tweeted an Interactive graph on the most unsafe cities in India. ‘Statistics from National Crime Records Bureau’s Crime in India 2012 report plotted on a graph to highlight which Indian cities have the highest rate of reported crime against women’ (
My only issue with this data is that this is based on the ‘rate of reported crimes’. Our ineffective system has resulted in women losing faith in the process mainly due to the manner in which they are treated during the inquiry and the delay in the punishment of the guilty. Thousands of cases are not reported. I was also reading that the men accused in this particular Mumbai rape crime have previously indulged in raping rag pickers and the crime was not reported. I’m not sure if even the women wanted to report the case would have been taken seriously nor given similar attention. We are failing as a system. Today there are vigils, non-sop new coverage and protests but how long is this going to go on? Are we going to be a nation with very short term memory or are we going to stay together until there is change in the system? All of us forgot what happened a few months to Nirbhaya and went on with our lives until this Mumbai case came along and jolted us.

I have studied Human Rights and I have always wanted to come back to India and work for issues relating to women but today the fear that is so strong in me I’m petrified to go back. I do not know if I should go back to a country where women are merely looked upon as sexual objects, treated worse than animals? A country where nothing ever can happen without paying a bribe? A country where the poor get poorer and the rich get richer? A country where without political power change can never happen? Right now it might look as if change can never happen but I believe that it will. My desire to go back to my country has increased and I will not let the perpetrators win!

I believe that my country is capable of change and that nothing is greater that the power of people. I believe that just like how we fought for our freedom in 1947, today we need to fight for freedom for women at all levels. This cannot be achieved by just protests and anti-government statements rather in cleansing the system and putting in laws that will create a sense of fear and responsibility among every citizen. We need to fight as a society to bring justice to the women who have been through this and not just the women but spare a thought for the men who have suffered alongside the women during these situations; they need us to fight for them. Justice delayed is justice Denied. My heart still longs for the day I will be able to walk without fear in my beautiful country and that is the day I will believe that India has truly attained Freedom.


What about the younger group?

March 3, 2013 § 1 Comment

STOP domestic abuse

A few days back the UK government’s definition of domestic abuse is being extended in March, to cover 16 and 17-year-olds. As much as this new change is welcomed I cannot help but think what about the younger group? How are we going to protect them?

The incident of Kelsey Shaw is fresh in my memory. A young girl who went into a relationship just like the many of us do, with expectations and the love to live the ‘happily ever after’ life. To the many who do not know the short lived painful life of this beautiful girl , here is a recap.

Kalsey was a beautiful girl who had dreams, wants and wishes just like every 12yr old. She met Callum Willcocks who was 14 and started her dating life. In the words of Willcocks during his trial ‘When it was good it was brilliant, but when it was bad it was absolutely terrible,’. Kelsey and Willcocks had a baby together when she was 14yrs old ( 2008). Willcocks had dropped out of school had no career and had a string of drug charges on his name. After serving 3 years detention by 2010 he was back in her life and this time it proved to be even more difficult. It was revealed that Willcocks was engulfed with rage and overwhelming suspicion. Kalsey was said to be dating another man the very thought of her being with another man drove willcocks crazy and many a times he tried to commit suicide.

On the April 28th 2010 the eve of Prince William and Catherine Middleton’s wedding , Willcocks and Kalsey were spending the evening at a friend’s house when an argument broke out and anger and rage engulfed Willcocks; ‘I was filling up with anger and I couldn’t hold it any more,’ he told the court. He strangled Kalsey until she lost her consciousness and she died the following day at the hospital. A young girl lost her life , a baby girl has lost her mother and has to now live with the reality and the man responsible for this horrendous crime is serving his sentence. This is just one incident that we know of, there are numerous women going through what Kalsey experienced without knowing what to do.
Being subjected to domestic abuse at a very young age can bear a scar for the rest of one’s life if the girl escapes from the situation. What if she doesn’t? What about the hundreds of young girls in the same plight as kasley? Do we have a support system that is adequate and capable of helping these girls? What about the girls who are younger than 16?

National Domestic Violence Freephone Helpline Numbers & Contact (

To talk to someone in confidence for support, information or an emergency referral to temporary accommodation, contact the free 24 hour National Domestic Violence Helpline.
Helpline: 0808 2000 247
National Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Children (NSPCC)

A free, confidential service for anyone concerned about children at risk, including children themselves. The service offers counselling, information and advice.

Helpline: 0808 800 5000
Northern Ireland Women’s Aid Domestic Violence Helpline

If you’re based in Northern Ireland and you need to talk to someone in confidence call the 24 hour helpline run by Women’s Aid, a voluntary organisation providing services for women and children in Northern Ireland.

Helpline: 0800 917 1414

Confidential support 24 hours a day for people who are experiencing distress or despair, and feelings that could lead to suicide.

UK and Northern Ireland helpline: 08457 90 90 90
Republic of Ireland helpline: 1850 60 90 90
Scottish Domestic Abuse Helpline

If you’re based in Scotland and you need to talk to someone in confidence call the 24 hour Domestic Abuse Helpline run by Scottish Women’s Aid, the lead organisation working towards the prevention of domestic abuse in Scotland.

Helpline: 0800 027 1234
Wales Domestic Abuse Helpline

The national free support and information service for women, children and men in Wales who are experiencing or who have experienced abuse at the hands of someone close to them. To talk to someone in confidence, call the 24 hour helpline.

Helpline: 0808 80 10 800

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